There are worse things to think about. Well, maybe not the concept of unbreakable swords or killing our companions. I think the silence at night can be deafening. The thoughts can be helpful, provided they're of the good kind. Perhaps you should consider reading by way of candlelight before calling it a night?
Maybe that'll help keep you out of trouble. Or we put bells on you or something.
Exactly like a cat. We'd hear if you were getting into something you shouldn't.
As for books, something you're interested in. I like learning about anything, so books are easy, though I guess I like poetry a lot. Maybe a little romance? I like history, too.
i think id prefer being the group cat to being me, honestly. id get to sleep all day, have food brought to me, get plenty of affection, all just for existing
a little romance? how risque. i never took you for being a fan of bodice rippers
I have to admit that you'd make a pretty good cat. I'm sure we've got some polymorph around here somewhere. Throw in some extra special magic and we can probably make that come true. Let you spend a whole day as one and see if you still feel the same.
I didn't say bodice rippers. I said romance. Although I guess those aren't incompatible sometimes. Regardless, is there something about me that implies I don't think much about romance? Everyone does, in a way or so. Even if it's just companionship.
I think I could polymorph myself into a cat, but it wouldn't stick. I'm not sure I'd want - actually, I was going to say 'imagine a life without music' but I have heard some very loud cats.
Anyway, I was more scandalized about the idea of you reading smut than I was about you considering romance. Erotica just doesn't seem very... cleric-y.
I don't read explicit material. Not intentionally. Usually. Even if I did, I can see the confusion. At no point in my life did I pledge myself to chastity. Some members of clergy can choose to, but that's not a requirement.
And no. Of course not. I have my hands full with the rest of you. I don't have time to entertain such notions.
oh come on, don't use my troublemaking as an excuse for being too afraid to put yourself out there. hell, i'll throw you at the next nice person we come across. what's your type?
I would prefer not to be thrown at anyone, honestly. I don't have a type. This isn't really something I give much thought to. Even before adventuring with the rest of you, it was always something else. The priesthood. The clergy. The order. I've been a little too preoccupied to think about others in such a way.
all of that sounds like an excuse to me. you dont need a long series of considerations to have fun jumping in someone else's bed, it just takes sleeping somewhere else for a night
[Which... he can't really imagine her doing, but still.]
Then I don't know what that type is. It hasn't exactly been on my list of priorities to find out. A nice, fleeting thought from time to time, perhaps, but there are other things that are more important.
ill help you figure it out! with a series of patented questions to get right to the core of your preferences so we can find you the perfect match to rock your bedroll at night
it's okay, we're friends here. you can trust me! this is for your benefit anyway
if you're that uncomfortable we can leave it, but id like to learn more about you so I can keep an eye out. you do deserve to be happy and romantically fulfilled, you know
I think it's very sweet of you to keep all of this in consideration, but to be perfectly honest, I don't think I would make the best romantic partner. It would be unfortunate if you found someone fitting criteria and I only disappointed them.
Well, I promote such things amongst the rest of you, it's true. [Doesn't mean she necessarily follows it. Maybe the rules don't apply to her.]
I think what you do, how you do it, if it works for you and yours, that's all that matters, right? If it's an agreement that's been come to, that's all that should matter.
sure but that means something should work for you too right? unless you're genuinely uninterested. no judgement. Just want you to feel like you deserve to be happy.
[He is striking some chords with her that she tries really hard to avoid, but she can't help but feel... very. Cherished. Mushy or not, she's appreciative.]
No, I hear you. I do.
It's just been easier not to think about things like that. It's always easier to keep myself busy. Don't laugh about this, Ceres, but I guess I'm a little scared to get involved in all of that. I don't have a head for courting or trysts or anything like it. I know what kind of person I am. I know how I am. I might give too much of myself, and if I did, I might never get it back.
I'm not laughing. I understand being afraid to share yourself with someone else. I don't think - I could really give any of myself like that. That's why it's so easy for me.
So maybe we have the opposite problem. Unfortunately that means I'm pretty bad at giving you advice.
Well, the good news is I wasn't going to ask you to. I will ask that you keep that between us. It's not something I'm proud of and I don't want people thinking I'm afraid of anything. That's not a good impression for me to give.
For what it's worth, I think I'd rather have your problem, though I don't think it's a problem at all. You seem like you know what you want and I have to admire that. You're not held back. You just reach out for it. If it's somehow harder for you, it certainly doesn't look it.
I wouldn't tell anyone. Who do you take me for? Some kind of fool who sings about everyone's secrets?
[Ceres.... you are.]
I wouldn't consider my problem a problem, no. I get what I want. I don't have to entangle myself in unnecessary feelings or drama.
Speaking of... my door is, you know, open. That probably doesn't help you with your issue at all. But if you ever need to relieve some stress without the threat of romance, I know my way around.
[... Is. Is he propositioning her. She doesn't even know how to take that.]
I'm sorry, what?
[How did she get herself into this? How did this happen? All she wanted was... She can't even remember now. This is clearly all her fault. They never would have gotten here if she hadn't been all sappy and sentimental with him to begin with.
[It's just not that big of a deal to him. Even if he usually prefers men - well, he doesn't mind lending a hand or whatever else. It's just helping out a friend, after all.]
It's not that. I just. You have a type and I'm not it.
[At least, she's certainly never thought so.]
To be fair, anyone could have said that and I would have responded exactly the same way. That is not something I hear every day. Or. Ever have before. Or if I have, perhaps I simply ignored it?
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There are worse things to think about. Well, maybe not the concept of unbreakable swords or killing our companions. I think the silence at night can be deafening. The thoughts can be helpful, provided they're of the good kind. Perhaps you should consider reading by way of candlelight before calling it a night?
Maybe that'll help keep you out of trouble. Or we put bells on you or something.
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what sorts of books would you recommend i read?
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As for books, something you're interested in. I like learning about anything, so books are easy, though I guess I like poetry a lot. Maybe a little romance? I like history, too.
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a little romance? how risque. i never took you for being a fan of bodice rippers
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I didn't say bodice rippers. I said romance. Although I guess those aren't incompatible sometimes. Regardless, is there something about me that implies I don't think much about romance? Everyone does, in a way or so. Even if it's just companionship.
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Anyway, I was more scandalized about the idea of you reading smut than I was about you considering romance. Erotica just doesn't seem very... cleric-y.
are you lonely, nep? like, romantically?
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I don't read explicit material. Not intentionally. Usually. Even if I did, I can see the confusion. At no point in my life did I pledge myself to chastity. Some members of clergy can choose to, but that's not a requirement.
And no. Of course not. I have my hands full with the rest of you. I don't have time to entertain such notions.
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'usually'. i see.
oh come on, don't use my troublemaking as an excuse for being too afraid to put yourself out there. hell, i'll throw you at the next nice person we come across. what's your type?
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[That's a lie.]
I would prefer not to be thrown at anyone, honestly. I don't have a type. This isn't really something I give much thought to. Even before adventuring with the rest of you, it was always something else. The priesthood. The clergy. The order. I've been a little too preoccupied to think about others in such a way.
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[Which... he can't really imagine her doing, but still.]
everyone has a type
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first: men, women, both, or neither?
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This is incredibly embarrassing. Do we have to do this? Can't we just leave well enough alone?
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if you're that uncomfortable we can leave it, but id like to learn more about you so I can keep an eye out. you do deserve to be happy and romantically fulfilled, you know
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my modus operandi is to fuck and leave before they wake up. so surely you're a better partner than me anyway
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I think what you do, how you do it, if it works for you and yours, that's all that matters, right? If it's an agreement that's been come to, that's all that should matter.
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ugh that's mushy of me. you get the idea
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No, I hear you. I do.
It's just been easier not to think about things like that. It's always easier to keep myself busy. Don't laugh about this, Ceres, but I guess I'm a little scared to get involved in all of that. I don't have a head for courting or trysts or anything like it. I know what kind of person I am. I know how I am. I might give too much of myself, and if I did, I might never get it back.
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So maybe we have the opposite problem. Unfortunately that means I'm pretty bad at giving you advice.
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For what it's worth, I think I'd rather have your problem, though I don't think it's a problem at all. You seem like you know what you want and I have to admire that. You're not held back. You just reach out for it. If it's somehow harder for you, it certainly doesn't look it.
You're fine the way you are, in my opinion.
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[Ceres.... you are.]
I wouldn't consider my problem a problem, no. I get what I want. I don't have to entangle myself in unnecessary feelings or drama.
Speaking of... my door is, you know, open. That probably doesn't help you with your issue at all. But if you ever need to relieve some stress without the threat of romance, I know my way around.
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Is. Is he propositioning her. She doesn't even know how to take that.]
I'm sorry, what?
[How did she get herself into this? How did this happen? All she wanted was... She can't even remember now. This is clearly all her fault. They never would have gotten here if she hadn't been all sappy and sentimental with him to begin with.
This is all her fault.]
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sorry.
you know how I run my mouth sometimes.
[It's just not that big of a deal to him. Even if he usually prefers men - well, he doesn't mind lending a hand or whatever else. It's just helping out a friend, after all.]
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[At least, she's certainly never thought so.]
To be fair, anyone could have said that and I would have responded exactly the same way. That is not something I hear every day. Or. Ever have before. Or if I have, perhaps I simply ignored it?
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I'm so sorry for him btw
Don't be. This has had me laughing my whole night. I love him to pieces.
GOOD haha i dont want to make you uncomfortable! he is an absolute disaster, sob
NEVER. I am impervious to discomfort!
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